Renewed Philosophy

Sorry guys, another "deep blog" by Kara. I can't help it, deep-thinking is just the pisces in me.

So after several "deep breaths" lately now that I'm getting off the roller coaster I've just ridden through the month of July - ex's wedding all over the media, sister's engagement, and an attempt at a new dating venture (the first in a long time that I was actually *hopeful* about) - the chaos has subsided and my head's clear again. I've run a brush through my wind blown hair, straightened up my clothes, and the weird feeling in my stomach that you usually get on a roller coaster has subsided. With the new found clarify, I'm now refocused. I've been stressed, I've felt an insurmountable weight of pressure from within and from external sources, and I just haven't been myself. I haven't been my fun-loving, c'est la vie, que sara sara, (insert your own cliche here) natural self. I feel like the more out of control I felt personally, the more control I tried to exert on my personal life, and it didn't work. And it sucks. But, I can't go back and change any of it no matter how much I wish I could. So, instead of song lyrics, which is what I usually relate to, today I found some movie quotes to live by.

"Stop trying to control everything and just let go."--- Fight Club

"Why should I live up to other people's expectations rather than my own?"--- Kat, 10 Things I Hate About You

"Don't go looking for Mr. Right. Look for Mr. Right Now, and eventually, if he's worthy, one day that Now part will just drop away naturally."--- The Sweetest Thing

My renewed philosophy is just to relax and have fun. I'll just be along for the ride with a smile instead of trying to drive and control where the ride is taking me. And I look forward to and am open for whatever's around the bend - past, present, and future.